Have you ever been sitting in church and something hits you? It happened to me today. Something that the pastor was saying really got me thinking. But then I started to get mad. Was I being convicted by the Holy Spirit in this or was Satan attacking me? Do I doubt myself because God is speaking to me or is Satan making me doubt myself? I am reading a book about Mary, Jesus' mother, and Satan speaks to her soul and causes her to doubt herself. (It is a fiction book.) But doesn't Satan speak to us? Doesn't he whisper to me that I am not worthy or that I am not beautiful or that I am not enough?
I don't really know the answer yet. I am not sure if it was God or Satan. But I am praying about it. God show me what you want me to see. Help me to hear what you have to say to me. Help me to be open to your Spirit's leading. Guide my heart and my thoughts. Make me in line with your Son. Help me to seek your truth and not measure myself with anyone else's ruler. Not the world's, not our pastor's, not mine. God help me to see me as you see me. God help me to be what you want me to be. God, teach me your thoughts.
