When it rains, it pours.

That is what they always say. Today it is pouring. When someone is close to death, is it selfish to feel sad? Nathan's grandpa is dying. We don't know the days or the hour. But I feel sad. I have only known him for 13 years and I am sad. He is crotchedy and stubborn and kind and sweet all at the same time. I know he has caused many a problem in his time, but to me he has only ever been kind and gracious and gentle and humble. Always offering a smile and a kind word to me with a bottle of honey or two when we passed through. I am sad for us. For we are being left behind. I would guess that he is not sad at all. He knows Jesus and believes in him and so we know that he is going home. And when he gets there, his wife will be waiting. I think he has been waiting for this time for about 7 years now. It will be a sweet reunion for him. But for us, it is an ending. Our kids have great memories of times on the farm. Of tramping through the dirt and grandpa getting out the tractor for rides. I have memories of seeing all my kids with their great grandpa. Thank you God, that Grandpa knows you. Thank you for the time he had on earth with us. Heal our sadness.