We have once again entered into the topic of homeschooling. The subject just keeps coming up. Of the three people who would have a say in the matter, one is for it, one against it and the most important person voting, me, undecided. We thought about homeschooling before Zachary started kindergarten and then again when he struggled with school last year it briefly made an appearance, but recently the thoughts have been running through my head of what if I could teach him and know exactly the influences that were being put on him. What if I had the control to say this is what we are going to study and not what someone else wants to study?
The thing that keeps me from not just going for it is me. Do I have what it takes to be disciplined and keep us studying? Do I have the ability to explain things several times to him so that he can understand it? Do I have the patience to work with him when he doesn't feel like doing school work and puts up a stink? Do I have the ability to tune out the toddler running around the house and focus in on teaching a 3rd grader and do Kindergarten at the same time?
Is this what God wants for our family? I guess that has to be the main question because if he doesn't want it, we don't want it either. If he does want it for us, the rest of the things will work themselves out. We will find a solution to the problems. God, help me to know if this is what you want for us. Help me to listen to your plan for our family and not my own.
